There were dreams and promises to begin with and so were some big expectations. But what lay ahead was mostly an unknown territory which although appeared thoroughly clear from different perspectives. But it was never supposed to be a completely smooth sail. Even if the waters are calm, the boat still has to be directed properly.
At some point of time, my personal dreams were even hard to ascertain, leave alone taking attempts at materializing them. At times I have been made to believe that I shall let life come to me and bring something for me rather than setting out and seeking something on my own. Either way it has been a win and lose situation at the same time and I am yet undecided on this issue – how to approach life? Whenever I do choose a path, its not long before bumps are felt in between and there appear to be voices calling back. Of late, whatever I have pursued, weren’t much in conjunction with my personal dreams or goals.
So much has changed in the past year. The world is so very different. The people around don’t appear same as they were before and perhaps nor do I appear same to them. Every thought has been subjected to endless analysis and every action has been followed with incessant retrospections. But when I look back I do believe that what I aimed at was satisfaction out of what I have done and this I might claim that I have succeeded in achieving.
But above all, I have enjoyed each and every moment thoroughly. The simple reason for that is I have felt passion in whatever I have done. I always believe that to achieve any goal, what a man requires is determination along with passion. I have never felt that I am wasting time anywhere, although there have been occasions when I have been deserted because others felt the other way. Things have gone out of control but I took due care to keep myself under control. And when I have failed in that too, the results haven’t been good. So, at some level it is the fight with my own inner-self that has kept me going forward. And as long as this fight continues, I believe that every goal is too small to achieve.
Straight from the heart of a happa !!
Yo!!!!!!!!!!
The “SEA-CHANGE” in PH is a reflection of what you have said !!!
when ever i pass across your room i always find you writing something .I guessed you are also a blogger.Now that my guess is correct and read your article, i find its interesting.You have the command on English language and flow of emotions rather say thoughts.But it seems more official blog/information site than hobbies oriented and personal. But the way you have shown enthusiasm,its heartening and interesting.
Keep writing and spreading love,
Regards