What does life mean to an individual? In many cases, the course and outcome of one’s life appear to be decided by the factors around. Right from the childhood, it is the family and other close ones who play an important and in many ways a decisive role in shaping the future. In most of the cases your thoughts get molded in such a way that are in similar lines of the aforesaid environment you are in. So, where does the sense of individuality then come in? Its not in your hands where and amidst which circumstances you are born. One is deeply influenced by the kind of education he undergoes. But that too is not in your hands. It depends on the thinking of your family and more importantly their resources. And since your career and future course of life largely is decided by your previous educational exploits, many would safely assume that it is not totally in your hands what you become.
But to me this is only the flipper side of the coin. As you grow up, your thoughts get expanded. And more often than not, you are not left with one narrow path to follow. After a certain stage your family no longer acts as a force in pushing you in a certain direction. And when there are to choices of paths to take upon, it is your own thoughts and decision-making prowess that comes into play.
There have been times when the situations around have forced me to act in a way I would not have done, had I gone totally with my inner-self. But again, there have been times when I have taken upon some decisions without looking around too much into the external conditions. Decisions which didn’t turn out to be the best for me. There have been regrets over them but I have moved on trying just to look into the positives out of them. It is not easy to gauge all the possible consequences of your actions. So I won’t burden myself by thinking that I didn’t look too much into the consequences before I undertook the decision. Of course, people around will raise questions in case of a failure. But that too happens only when something has gone wrong. It is then that everybody realizes that the task had better not been undertaken. But to warn of it in advance is beyond their anticipations as well.
So I have been doing what I have felt I can do the best. Within my limitations I have tried to make the most of my capabilities. Whenever I have let myself down, I have only gained further mental strength. But I try not to let myself feel down when others have questioned my capabilities and actions. As I said, I believe I have my own limitations and I need to do the best I can within that. Anything beyond that can be tried upon but not with any anticipation or fear of success or failure.
